Visit with a RE and the Start of Clomid

I was referred to a RE by a mom from the dance studio who has had some problems getting pregnant a few years back. I was looking for a new OB/GYN office/practice and she recommended this doctor. Although they don't do obstetrics, I still went because I figured that I could get some answers and the opinion of a specialist. He was very nice and sat with me for more than an hour in his office discussing balanced translocation and infertility in general. I told him how when I asked one of my current OB/GYN if they could give me something to boost my ovulation she had said no, there was no reason to do that with me since I was getting pregnant on my own and my hormones were in the excellent range. The RE saw it otherwise. He said that we could try superovulation, try and produce more eggs with the hopes of getting a good one in there and most importantly fertlized. So this is when Clomid comes to this post. He wrote me a prescription and I guess we will see if taking it and trying naturally can increase my chances of a good egg. Let's hope so...... IVF isn't in our budget and the other medicine the RE talked about with possibly IUI does not seem to be in our budget as well. Yesterday's visit fell under specialist so I only had to pay my $30 copay and the medicine had no cost. It was covered. I was suprised about that, I guess I'll see if I get a bill in the mail from the insurance company.
He also drew blood for ovarian reserve. Hmmmm.... I am kind of scared that they will call me today and that the results are poor. Again, we will see I guess. I just happened that I had my appointment and my period at the same time, so the days worked perfect for blood work and all.
So this is the plan at the moment. Trying naturally with Clomid. As anyone had success with Clomid and balanced translocation, naturally? I was hopeful at first when he talked about it but it has been so rough, I don't know if this will help. I hope so.

New Background

Ok, I have changed my background and hope that this fixes the comment box problem. Please let me know if you can leave comments on here, thank you!

New Blog Design

I tried to change my blog over the weekend and used another background. It was very pretty but I found it hard to read and follow. But it messed up my entire layout!!! ha! I tried to fix it but it took me a long time so I got a bit frustrated ;-)
This is a temporary layout until I can find one that I like better. Hopefully, I will be able to find another layout/background that I like better very soon. In the meantime, you might come to my blog and see that it is different from day to day until I am satisfied ;-)

It was Just a Fluke I Guess

I thought that my period was here since I started spotting on Thursday (this would have been the shortest 2ww ever though) but it has completely stopped. I guess it was just a fluke. The weird thing is that I was cramping like if I was having my period on Thursday and Friday. I was sure that the bleeding would become heavier. No cramping yesterday or today (so far).
I am trying to look back at my week and see if maybe something could have triggered some bleeding. The only thing that happened out of the ordinary is on Wednesday. I took a crossfit class that morning that was very intense and pushed myself hard. At the end, I felt very light headed and like I was going to throw up. Well..... I actually had to run to the bathroom at the gym and put a cold rag on my face and I did not really throw up but I gagged a little (so sorry for tmi). Could this have triggered something in my body and cause some spotting and cramping? I work out a lot so I think it's very unlikely but I did push myself hard.
Anyhow.... I guess we will see if I do get a heavier period later on!

The Shortest 2ww Ever!

Hmmmm..... I am a little surprised that my period started again yesterday! Indeed, I had my period on Wednesday December 28th after a normal 28 day cycle (the previous one started on December 1st). So yesterday, January 12th, I was surprised to see brownish blood when using the bathroom. I put a liner in my undies, and there was a bit of brown on it at night when I got home. Cramping started like my period is here. But this would be the shortest 2ww ever since it has only been two weeks since my last period!!! I am freaking out a little. I don't want my body to start doing weird things (it's already hard with the translocation). I usually have longer cycles with the occasional weird 20 days (I think maybe once 18 days) cycle. But never two weeks. So when did I ovulate? It makes no sense! I was still bleeding from my 12/28/11 period on 1/2/12. If anyone out there knows anything or has any input, please let me know!
Besides that, all is pretty quiet here....

Happy New Year!

I don't have much to say but I wanted to wish everyone a Happy New Year. Let's hope for many miracles this year. Many people that I know are pregnant, either for a while or just announcing their pregnancies. I somehow handle it pretty well. I have had this weird, serene feeling lately that it might happen soon for us but I don't want to write more about it (just a superstitious thing of me, don't want to jinx myself). So at this point we shall see what happens in the future.

The Holidays

Ever since two years ago when we suffered the loss of pregnancy #4 on Xmas Eve day, it has been hard to enjoy the Holidays. It's sad because Christmas has always been my favorite Holiday of all. I would get that Xmas spirit to the fullest but for the past two years I have seen a significant change. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy it but it is not the same. I still cannot understand how I could miscarry on my favorite Holiday (or on the day of the recital for that matter----- the two most important days of my year).
Then last year, our A/C-Heater Unit broke on December 15th and it was cold in Florida at that time. We spent last Xmas bundled under sweaters and blankets drinking hot cocoa warming ourselves up with space heaters because we did not have the funds to replace the A/C unit yet. Although the giggling of cuddling on the couch with my Hubby make great memories, it was another hard Christmas.
This year, the Holiday season started rough again and it made me wonder what the H*** on earth we did to deserve this. My car, which is not that old (but of course we are done paying it and warranty is over) broke at the beginning of December. Price tag to repair -------> not very pretty. Got several estimates and finally had to repair it. $1300 right before the Holidays. I am just thinking, are you kidding me?
Then, Monday night, our Basset Hound Boots that we've had for almost 11 years looked very sick and did not move all night. He is my Hubby's best friend and it was hard to see him sobbing as we thought it would be Boots' last night on earth. I could not believe that would happen again right before Xmas.
Well, Boots got better the following day and he is doing good today. We know he is very old and it might be his last Xmas but we wish that he can last longer, forever would be great ;-) Here is a picture of him guarding our Christmas tree :)

BUT, after these little troubles, something great is happening this year. My Mom has flown from France to come spend the Holidays with us. I am SO thrilled as I have not spent Xmas with my Mom for at least 12 years (I cannot remember exactly). She has been so kind to me, to us really. She has offered to pay for most of the repairs on my car and has pretty much bought all my Hubby's presents and got pretty much a new wardrobe for me. I have not asked for anything, as I never do. I know she does it from the bottom of her heart. She knows how hard the Holidays have been for us. But the best present this year is not a material one. The best one this year is the one of love. I feel blessed that I am spending the Holidays with the two people I love the most in this world, my Hubby and my Mom. And as Boots looks better, we will most likely have our three dogs with us as well this Christmas :) I will cherish this Christmas forever.
We have not reached parenthood yet but we never know what the future holds........ we just have to wait and see I guess. But right now, I am here with my loved ones. Of course, the pain of pregnancy loss is here and it's very real but I am happy to say that this year is going to be a Good Christmas!