Thursday, November 25, 2010

Blood Work

Hello everyone! So I went to get some blood work done yesterday at my OB/GYN. It was supposed to be cd21 testing (progesterone) and thyroid I believe. After the nurse was done with the blood and needle part (yikes.....), I asked her if they would also test the thyroid (the doc had said that it should be checked also, just in case). But when we looked at my chart (the hand written part of what doc said should be tested), the nurse was a little confused. On the line that said cd21 testing, the cd21 was crossed out with a scribble on top of it and on the remaining part of the line it said something about the thyroid. The nurse said she was going to find out for me if both things would be checked (progesterone + thyroid). I was a little pi**** off. Why not just checking all that needs to be checked and be clear about it??? When I get the results next week, I will have to ask what was tested. If for some reason, only one thing was checked, I know I will have to take the bull by the horns again, open my mouth, make an appointment, and ask if this or this or this should be tested. I get so frustrated sometimes. I know that my BT is most likely the cause of my 5 m/c's....... but I would like to make sure everything else is ok!!!!! We never know..... I might get lucky and a good little egg might come by someday..... ugghhhh........... sorry, I just had to let it out!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Baby Shower

Yep..... today was fun........ I went to my bestfriend's baby shower for Baby #2. I love her more than anything and think of her more as my sister than my friend. I actually started TTC before she was even married or thought of having children. It is weird how things turn out in life. Here I was today, after 5 years of her being married, and celebrating her baby #2 who is due in 3 weeks. Although it is hard, I do not wish any bad things for her and I am very happy for her and hubby. Her and I suffered a m/c pretty much at the same time about 3 years ago (it was her first, my 2nd). She went on and achieved motherhood. I'm still trying.... I feel so angry sometimes because our children should have been growing up together. So many memories that could have been, do not exist. She has been the bestfriend in the world by being so careful when I am around, making sure that I was involved in her first born's life as much as possible. She made me the Godmother and told me the day he was born that I was the chosen one after I had witnessed his birth. He loves me very much and this eases the pain that I feel sometimes! She is very hopeful for me and I wish that one day I can join her in motherhood!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Grrrrrr...... I Spoke too Fast!

OB/GYN office called. HSG came back normal...... whoohoo!!!! At least, that's some good news. Repeated m/c's not happening because of uterus!!! Next round of testings, next week.....

Waiting for HSG Results

Well, it's been almost a week now and still haven't heard anything about the HSG test from last Friday. The physician assistant told me that day that it seems like everything was fine, no blocked tubes, uterus seem fine. Still no formal results from doc. I called OB/GYN yesterday and left a message but no one called me back. It says for tests results to leave a voicemail and someone will call back...... huuuhhhh???.... I have to go back next Wednesday for progesterone testing. I guess if I still hear nothing from them, I will ask that day!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

New to Blogging

Hello Everyone!!! Well, I am new to the blogging world..... ummmm, not entirely. I have been following blogs from numerous people in order to get answers after I was diagnosed three years ago with Balanced Translocation :( I have done tons of reading, followed several discussion boards but I have never actually wrote anything. Lately, I have been thinking about writing about my experience. I wanted to write a book but then I thought that starting a blog and being able to share thoughts might be a great way to share what I have been going through with other people. Well, after 5 miscarriages...... here we are........ still with an empty womb..... An Empty French Womb!
 Although the road to motherhood has been pretty rough so far, I stay positive and have a pretty good spirit!