Monday, May 14, 2012

Horrible AMH Results and a Serious Car Accident

It has been a while since I have posted anything. I was going to write after I received my AMH results on April 17th but I got in a serious car accident on April 19th which, thank lord, I only suffered minor injuries considering the severity of the crash. That week was horrible and it has taken me some time to feel better emotionally. I have been seeing a therapist who told me that I should keep writing because it is a great way to express yourself and heal.
I will start with the AMH results. In my last post, I explained that I was starting my third cycle of Clomid (if I recall correctly) and I was saying that again my FSH came back a bit elevated. The RE had then decided to test my AMH because of the FSH being high and the fact that it takes me an average of a year in between each pregnancies. I could feel that I would not receive great news but did not think that the results would be so low. At my age, 31, you should receive a result above 1. Mine came back at 0.4. When I got the call, my heart sank. I remember being upset all day, I was struggling at work. When I got home at night, I was really quiet and not talking and my husband could feel something was bothering me. When I finally talked to him, I lost it and was in tears and devastated. I explained to him that most likely I don't have that much time left to get pregnant and did not even know if I could ever have a child. As usual he was very comforting but my heart was aching terribly and felt so sad. The following day was tough but I went to work and tried to focus on other things. This is where the accident comes into the picture. The AMH results came on Tuesday..... Wednesday was a tough day but got through it...... I decided to go to the gym on Thursday morning and take a kick butt spinning class in order to regroup myself and keep going with my life..............
As I was driving to the gym at around 9am, a lady ran a stop sign and hit me full speed driver side. I had the right of way and was on the main road, she came from a side street. She did not stop......... and almost took my life away. The hit was incredible, it felt like an explosion. I will always remember that horrible sound when her van hit me. The rest is a bit blurry but it seems that my car spun and it came to a stop when it hit a power pole (on the back of my car). I can't really describe what my car looked like afterwards, I will let you look at the pictures and see for yourself:






I am lucky to be alive today. I was transported by ambulance on a stretcher as we had no idea what my injuries were . I got cut all over my left arm from the glass. There was blood everywhere. I had an enormous contusion on my left hand, I suffered a black eye and lots and lots of horrible bruises, the seatbelt burnt me and I had a horrible black blue yellow bruise on the left on my neck. I could not move my neck and was so scared. I was in pain and laying down for a week after the accident. I have gone through several scans, testings, and MRIs. We just got the results from the neck one. I have a lesion on one of my cervical disks. I have been in alot of pain, mostly in my neck and back since the crash. As you know, I own a dance studio and it has been affecting my professional life and personal one of course. As I am slowly returning to normal, I am just wondering what I have done to deserve all this. As if getting that horrible AMH result wasn't enough.
Well, I am still here and feeling a bit better. We were finally able to go get my new car on Friday. I went with a mini SUV and it feels so big for me (4 ' 11'' Frenchie) but I feel very safe in it and driving is becoming easier each day. The accident was very traumatic but I am thankful for being here today. If you look at the back of the car, behing the driver's seat, you can see that if I had a passenger on that day, it would not have been pretty.  I keep telling myself that maybe this is the reason why we did not have children..............
I have to go to court tomorrow as the lady is fighting her ticket!!!! Wow, I am stunned but I have to do it. I will keep you posted on my condition. I had to put my last cycle of Clomid on hold because of this horrible chapter but I am now patiently waiting for AF in order to try one last time with Clomid. Will life ever give me a break? I surely hope so.....

5 comments:

  1. wow, I'm so glad you were not badly injured. The woman has to be a maniac, she nearly killed somebody and she is fighting her ticket? God, I hope she loses her license!

    About the AMH- I'm really sorry. If you vitamin D levels are off though, it may be falsely low- plenty of that on my blog.

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    1. Hi Jay, yeah I was thinking the same thing about her. I can't believe that I have to take some more of my personal time to deal with this accident.
      I will read about the vitamin D on your blog. I am really interested, the results were really hard on me. Thanks for letting me know :)

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  2. Wow!!!!!!! Frenchie!!!!! I just wish I could run over and give you a hug! I don't know which news I am more upset with but honestly I am just so glad you are alive!! I really hope you're able to fight this lady and get every dime you deserve. As for the AMH results...I am truly truly sorry. I have been in your exact boat before and it was a truly awful time. You are in my prayers Frenchie. Keep us posted...

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  3. Ugh, not a good series of events. I'm glad your injuries from that awful crash are relatively minor in the scheme of things. So scary.

    And I'm very sorry about the low AMH. I've been there, and it's devastating.

    Hope things look up for you soon!

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